i'm lost, i dont know who can i trust, i dont know what is happening now
people just keep backstabbing each other in front of me, who should i trust??
no one, im tired, im sick of it
really
is that really hard for me to live happily? yes, it is hard

have made a decision, i will tell my mum all about those at night, IF i have to guts
but, i have to
should i go? should i change? should i just run away of these? CAN i?
keep holding on, i have to

yesterday slept at 4am, woke up at 1pm, feeling better
cried quite badly last night, but, dont know why, i always feel better after crying
and, i look back, find that it is like nothing matter
btw, thanks, wenchien =), to keep me a company to 3.30am
but, when something happen again, cry again, and keep repeating and repeating
arghh
this is me