dangerous

i don't like these, i mean, who likes these?
gah, maybe it was me who started all these, and it caused so much troubles
these few days i just felt like couldn't eat, couldn't breathe, couldn't concentrate, just daydreaming

'i don't know why you come to school, you're just like cheating on the attendance' my friend even asked me that
I'm not requiring for a sympathy or what
maybe in every people's eyes, I'm like those bad girls, who betrays people, or plays people
but I'm not
I'm serious, for everything
maybe i shouldn't have started all this in the beginning, I've hurt and ruined many people's life
but what else can i say now? no more
i have destroyed two relationships, we were best friend, they were best friend
but now? no more, really no more
just because of my decision

suddenly problems just boomed out, a lot problems
glad that i haven't became insane, glad that i still can afford all these
but i don't know how to solve, got three, er, or four problems I'm having
all are just so important to me, and i don't know how to solve them
maybe I've just solved one? or haven't? maybe i just need times, the one who meant so much so much to me
i don't know what I'm talking about, just so confused

maybe as someone said ' I'm a dangerous "woman" '
haiz
can i run away from these? NO
and maybe i' m a bad person, i just never realised that